Crafting is such a deeply personal thing for a lot of people. We work away on our projects, often re-working and re-designing several times to get something “just right.”
Sometimes, the most difficult part of the process is finding the confidence to show off the finished article, especially if it has been made for a really special occasion and is the result of many, many hours of work.
I made this veil for my daughter’s First Holy Communion last year, and had such a crisis of confidence that I almost gave in at the last minute – I would have gladly gone out to buy one rather than have my home-made version on show for all to see.
In my eyes I had made the veil too long, and the weight of the cotton was pulling the top out of shape. If I had made it shorter, the bottom edging would have been more visible against my girl’s dark blonde hair, rather than lost against the white dress. The beads I used didn’t give enough sparkle, and I should have used something in crystal, rather than pearly white……..
Why so negative?! I am normally a very positive person, and try to see the good in most things. Why was I being so harsh about this veil?
If someone else had made the veil and given it to my daughter, I would have been over the moon and been thrilled with such a personal gift.
I think it is because I have always been a shy person, and my confidence has taken a real knock over the last few years. This is something I can either give in to, and crawl away to hide from the world, or fight against and get back out there.
I chose the latter, that day, and I pinned the home made veil to my daughter’s hair, even though I was a bundle of nerves. She loved it, and so did a lot of people. Of course, a lot of other people didn’t even notice it – I had built this up in my mind, into a really big deal, when in actual fact, it was only a very minor part of what was a really lovely day.
From now on, if you want to create something, just go ahead and do it. Our creativity is what makes us all so unique, and it would be such a loss to go through our whole lives hiding it away from the world.
Over the past week, since starting this blog, I have seen many, many photographs of other peoples’ creations, and have really loved them all. I am going to continue to share my own photos here in the continuing fight against shyness. Let’s have a little faith in ourselves and in our own abilities. 🙂