This might not look like much, but tonight it has helped me in the fight against Imaginary Hunger, Boredom Eating, Comfort Eating, and Eating Because There Is Nice Food In The House – all the Stupid Hungers, basically.
I posted just a few days ago about starting over again on my weight loss journey. So far I have been going pretty much ok; no figures to report as yet, because I have no scales in the house at the minute. ( I have done that deliberately as I have been pretty obsessy about weighing in the past and my daughter is now 9, which puts her in the danger zone. Daily weighing is not a behaviour I wish to pass on to her!)
The first few days of a new eating plan can be a massive anti climax. You put in a few good days, deny yourself all your favourite treats, feel pretty virtuous, and then wait for the compliments to roll in…which they don’t. You slip on your jeans in the morning, expecting to be at least another notch slimmer on your belt…and you aren’t. It takes massive will power to stick to the programme when you feel like all your efforts are getting you nowhere, and nobody is even noticing all your hard work. Last time I lost the weight, it took a full four stone (56 pounds, or 25 kilos) before my own mother asked me if I had lost a little weight. I waited a very long time to hear that question!
Having said all that, I was prepared this time around and am quite happy to wait another 56 pounds before anyone notices again – I have learned a little patience over the years and am ready for the challenge.
What I wasn’t prepared for was the emotional toll of facing up to the demons that cause me to over eat. And the cold! I am so cold today, obviously my body is adjusting to the sudden lack of junk food by shutting down all non essential systems. Thanks, body! If there is one thing guaranteed to make me waver, it is sitting here miserable and freezing.
But I can get through this. I am working on my second stash busting blanket, pictured above, and have decided to go all Tunisian for a change. And to make sure that I don’t give in to the food cravings, I made them a feature of the design!
Every time a craving hit, I changed yarn, turned the work, and changed direction. So as you can see, I am getting a random patchy effect that is eating up my yarn stash while taking my mind off the cookie jar. Yes, it might seem a little bizarre, but do you know what? It is working. And when the blanket is finished, I will take a picture of it, to remind me of all of the cravings that I didn’t give in to.
Plus, all the yarn is keeping me nicely cosy, bonus for me! Yippee! 🙂